I don’t know what has been going on with me lately, I just have not been feeling like myself.  I had another crazy binge – that’s two in three days which is really bad.  I had been doing a lot better, so I’m not sure what is bringing this all on.  I do think that my hormones are really out of wack, though.  As I mentioned in my last post, there is something really weird going on with my period – even though I am on the same pill I have been on for years it is coming every two weeks and is very irregular.  I’ve been having mood swings and been having weird cravings and I’m sure that is contributing to my more frequent binging.  Today I went and had the blood tests done for my thyroid, so hopefully I will get those results soon to see if that is the problem.  If not, I’m not sure what is next – will have to get with my doctor to figure it out.  If so, I guess I still have to get with my doctor and go on some kind of thyroid medication.  Either way, kinda sucks.

And today kinda sucked.  First thing, I woke up and came home for my first meeting.  While I was in the meeting, I did my genius move of the day – I burnt the crap out of my hand.  Let me explain.  Usually, I make my coffee in the evening – I make two servings so there is enough for my cup in the morning.  Then, in the morning, I just pour it out, add my milk and sugar, and heat it up.  Voila.  Some people don’t know how I can stand to drink day-old coffee, but it doesn’t bother me one bit and I have been doing it for years so I am pretty much on autopilot.  Pour, add milk and sugar, stick it in the microwave for exactly 4 minutes.  Last night, however, I was at Stephen’s so I didn’t make my coffee in the evening like I usually do.  So this morning I made the coffee fresh.  Then, not thinking about it, I poured it in my mug, added my milk and stuck it in the microwave for 4 minutes.  Except since I had just brewed it, it was already piping hot.  So it started boiling over in the microwave.  It took me a few minutes to figure out what was going on – it was still pretty early, I was out of it, and I just smelled coffee really strongly.  When I realized, I opened the microwave door and saw the mess.  I grabbed the mug (which was half empty now since a lot of the coffee boiled out of the cup into the microwave) and quickly carried it over to the sink to pour what was left in it out into another mug.  As I started pouring, there must have been an air bubble or something from the boiling because there was a “blip!” and all of a sudden scalding hot coffee was everywhere, including all over my left hand.  It hurt soooooo bad.  I ran it immediately under cold water, and left it there for a long time.  The second I took it out I felt searing pain.  Then, I iced it for hours.  But still, any time anything touched it that was remotely warm – not even warm, but simply not cold – it hurt so bad.  Burns are so painful, it is unbelievable.

So I didn’t get that much done at work in the morning, with the combination of meetings and the fact that I could only type with one hand so it was very slow-going.  For breakfast, I had a bowl of fresh blueberries – I didn’t want to deal with anything even remotely heated:

Lunch was turkey salad:

In the afternoon, I had to go get the blood tests done.  When I got home, for snacks I had some Kashi Honey Sunshine cereal, cherries, and two peaches:

Then Stephen came over and we went for a run.  Just a quick 5 miler, we were both pretty tired and his quads and still really sore.  He’s going to die if he tries to do a long run this Sunday, I think.

I made a quick dinner, a grilled cheese and tomato sandwich, zucchini with laughing cow cheese and salsa, and Easy Mac.  Yep, it was an easy mac kind of day.  Well, technically it was Nutrisystem macaroni and cheese with beef, because I have some ancient cups to use up, but just as good.  Probably better because it has more protein

For dessert I had some Jelly Bellys and a frozen chocolate-covered banana:

After that I had a meeting for work and after the meeting is when my binge began.  But I won’t bore or bring you down with those details, I’ve done that to myself enough already.  Talk to you tomorrow, when I’m in a better mood.